However, the acting industry is starkly different than Christian bubble world.
AND I love it. And I love the people I have met through it. And I've felt deeply loved by them too. But sometimes it can be pretty strange for me. I can feel extremely straight-laced with industry people...
...But sometimes I feel weird with Christians too, like I'm breaking social mores by being an actor. The top question I get from Christians is whether or not I would kiss another actor. Would I do a nude scene? (Okay, not a lot of people dare to ask that. The answer is no nudity). But I feel like the question is: how far will I push the envelope?
Then I'm back in an acting scenario and spiritual topics come up. I'm faced with the awkwardness of talking about my faith without sounding like a psycho. I so badly want to say, "I really felt like God told me..." but that sounds ridiculous. Instead I find myself saying, "I followed my heart..."
The answer is easy, right?: seek to please God, not man.
I read a blog recently about feeling like a religious misfit. The context is different, but the concept is the same. I'll never fit in while I'm here on earth. Psalm 39:12 "I dwell with you as a foreigner, a stranger..."
As long as I want to be an actor, I'll feel weird among Christians - like I have to live a certain way to please people with expectations. As long as I'm a Christian, I'll feel weird in the industry - like I'm afraid the moment I say "Christian" I'll be put in a box of prejudices.
I'm one girl, living in two VERY different worlds.